No More Keeping My Feet on The Ground

I met with my supervisor today and she made me feel that I can actually do this whole research thingy. I'm optimistic. I'm going to get right on it. watch me my watchers... I also spent longer than five minutes in that reading place at the faculty. I'm always in and out, begging people to borrow text books for me. I have a deep fear of borrowing books. don't ask! I was in there because I have this whole pile of work to hand in this week...I'm a deadline person. there are some interesting books in there. I know this because everytime I go in there to do my reading I end up reading books that are interesting but have no relevance to what I should be doing. they make me like PR and advertising more though. Almost borrowed one today, then I slammed it down and hightailed it out of there like I was possessed. only started breathing after I was halfway home. don't ask!I just finished Anchee Min's Empress Orchid. good read. word of advice, do not attempt to share the reading of this book with your siblings. older or younger. It will create numerous battles. however if you are a strategist like I am and are not afraid to use underhand tactics such as hiding said book in your school bag or bullying younger sibling, go right ahead. I won! I finished before either of them. muhahaha..! it might have helped that older sibling goes to work, younger sibling does Math and the book is kinda slim.last night I was mean to a guy. I apologise. It's not him that I despise. It's my failure to see him like he wants me to. Every time I look at him I see white shoes in various forms, and I notice that his are only black. I wouldn't choose him over a russian. not even one that deserves no choosing. He is losing to memories. who am I kidding? he never had a chance. he likes Coldplay. I like him more for it.I want to go to Pallisa, who wants to come with?