You know that iffy time you didn't have enough money to buy those shoes, get that humongous burger from Soho and watch a movie at overpriced-plex or buy 100 more skirts (even those that are just 2k) and you turned every smile upside down and hated on the world and its mother and made life hard for your boyfriend?This shit is worse. Suck it up or die. Or suck it up and die. Whichever works. Just. Don't. Whine.Instead, look for smiley, pseudo happy things on the Internetz, paint suns and hearts on your boyfriend's glass ware and wear that top backward, just because you can.Mostly, kiss your boyfriend because he is maybe the best friend you've ever had and he really does do ish to make life less sucky because of love and what not.
Paragraphs are hard to write. Long sentences take too much time and commitment. Friendships die and resurrect and then die again, and it doesn't matter how many texts you send or hugs you give. Just because last October was eventful doesn't mean this one will be. (Last October I quit my then job, and then rafted on the Nile. I am having a stare-down with my October 2011 calender. Two weeks to top last year or ... something.)Substituting 'busyness' for 'wellness' does not work. At the beginning of the year I was desperate for inspiration/reason/distraction which led me to charity groups and partying. Lost causes and dying friendships were the cost because apparently choosing friendship over things doesn't magically make things better.
Big words make my head hurt. Jumbled up, coming out wrong. Different. Wrong? I want to quit my job. Again. Is that an(other) example of my lack of commitment or my refusal to compromise on happy? How do you even compromise on happy? Less than happy is sad, right? I almost hate how simple everything is once it's not complicated. I have tangles and knots in my hair* and I'm in this deeper than I thought. Love is precious and absurd and maybe all in my head. Feelings are so weird. Like a song you can't forget or a mosquito that won't quit (don't quit). *Almost one year natural. Growth challenge is so on.
You make me glad I never really gave up believing in unicorns and rainbows and butterflies. I'm not sure whether you make me laugh the hardest because I like you tres tres much, or if I like you tres tres much because you make me laugh the hardest. Happiness is the ish.KissesEls
-Mr Tendo-HAHAHA! eejit-eh? What's up?-Nothing. Where are you?-Wandegeya. Why?-No reason. Just saying wazza.-Thank you.-For?-Checking on me. Love you.-eh?-I love you.-Whatever. See you at 5?-Yes. Bring your friend.-But you guy...-*chuckle*-Call you later?-Cool cool. See you. Greet Amooti.-Ok. Bye babe.I'd rather make up/remember old conversations with you than make new ones with other people. I love you forever, which is a long time to be living off memories. I wish you would call.
Sometimes losing control is the only way to keep your place. Save your face. Eat your cake. Left is the new right, dark the new light. Happiness and tears are besties. Boats and moats keep you away. Clarity is drowned in the cold. I belong to the sun and you belong with me. My darkness for yours? I have all the answers and none of the questions. Dog days are over.
I hate that you're not a trekkie anymore. I thought we could bond over that but alas, you've gone over to the other side. I guess I'll have to learn to live with that. At least we still have the Beatles, Coldplay and Simon Templar, eh?p.s. I sort of quit my job. ...Longish story. Mummy will tell you all about.
I really would like a destination wedding. Like for real. I know you think I'm kidding half the time (and I am), but not this time. I really really really want to get married on a beach. I know its weird, and it doesn't fit in your suka wearing, plans but it's what I want. Think about it. The lucky thing is that I haven't even met him so we still have some time to iron out the kinks and what not. I promise. I was kidding when I said I wanted you to meet him, what what. I can be silly. Sorry.
But that didn't stop me from dancing like a maniac, jumping up and down and sideways (falling) on a trampoline or wearing non-flat shoes to work today.I'm either;a)Stupidb)Invinciblec)Suicidald)all the above*my bum thinks (a) pretty much sums it up
Growth challenge is so on.
I guess I'll have to learn to live with that. At least we still have the Beatles, Coldplay and Simon Templar, eh?p.s. I sort of quit my job. 
...Longish story. Mummy will tell you all about.
