How long before I get in?Before it starts, before I begin?How long before you decide?Before I know what it feels like?Where To, where do I go?If you never try, then you'll never know.How long do I have to climb,Up on the side of this mountain of mine?somehow, no matter what rock song I hear, it comes back to Chris Martin and russians. you have banished me to a siberian wasteland, and still I pine. I long. I compare you to those that truly loved me, and I start to think that I never wanted them to want me the way I want you to want me. knowing this, I should stay away from everything that reminds me of you. everything that reminds me of you...everything reminds me of you. in some weirdly roundabout way my mind always latches onto the image of you. could I be sadder? I am strong. I will not call you, text you, email you, or even ask to see you. I will not.